and now is WHAT ?

OKAY !
Now what must I say ? This few days I noticed that she's different , but I don't wanna get hard to think over it so I just acting like nothing happen . I really don't know what they think about me actually , but seriously girl , I'm not having fun & I'm not leaving you guys behind ! and you know what ? I'm tired picking up all your slack too ! even we had a hard time like this , when we don't know what each other doing , I'm not saying anything bout you ~ but why did you must do this way to me ? Am i that bad in your eyes ? tell me @_@ .. I may be wrong, but I never think bad about you guys...My heart is full of happiness before but now its full of regret ~